Autumn wind
There were no dreams; growing up
I was the leaf; blown about by
an autumn wind; drifting free
yet shackled; restrictions imposed
unknowingly hampering
the dreaming; the purpose
of all
There were no dreams; growing up
I was the leaf; blown about by
an autumn wind; drifting free
yet shackled; restrictions imposed
unknowingly hampering
the dreaming; the purpose
of all
The day I stopped living
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The day I stopped living
now faded
beyond memory
fragmented
horrors
stirring
The day I stopped living
the ghost came down
the attic clown
in clogs
slowly turning
mirrors cracking
my waltzing Matilda
a dutchess
in dreaming
The day I stopped living
I toppled
stirring
frowning down the
piper of Maris —
burning
The only form poetry I write
is one that fits the pockets
of a wood —
overcoat
I think the frustration boiled down to either
A) it was 8.45pm and it was still +32C outside and the open windows did not help a damn bit, it wouldn’t get any colder today, fact
B) there was no time for the wine to chill before I opened the container, and lukewarm White is such a pleasure to consume, right
I reckon it is probably both plus the fact that I realised that learning a new language requires either sound proof walls or… Yeah that’s about it, repeating out loud on a bus or whilst walking down the road is just asking for trouble. Plus plus a fact I haven’t considered, maybe learning a new language through the means of a second language is a bad idea to start with.
So right now I picture frozen lakes at Christmas time, people on skates, a cold drink in my hand – covered by mittens.
I was not aware; no
the warning sign;(s)
well obscured; hidden
unsighted by choice
seemingly, lustless
dreams and longings
for goal yet lacking
the ball(s) to kick
the day would come
sooner than so; so
so written
among the leaves
scattered; so spoken
by those gone before me
so blatent
yet impervious my skin
filled of sin; and rotten
acorns
I was not aware; no
one day my steps
would shorten; the
pace; cadence actual
no longer matching
the thoughts driving
me forward; or back
undeniably
I was not aware; no
that one day I could
feel older
older than I actually
was
older than so and so
those word once spoken
though true
ultimately ignored and
all lessons to be learnt
once more
by living
Today I kill you with green
mortification by envy
in part justified
in part grass
a regurgitated death of
a heartless queen
of dreams
Today I kill you with green
Today I kill —
the dream
I walked the streets of
Paris, le gay Pari’, though
no rainbow I saw; just the
gray that was beneath me,
my mind uneased by
the not knowing
the not speaking
them not speaking
the not quite belonging
not just yet – anyway
I walked
from bed to bath
down creaking stairs
of a shabby Paris
hotel
Passed passed-out
drunks and on to
Louvre – a sunny day
sun block was
bought
Through the trees and
the park up to the
arc so triumphant
an Italian wanted trade
leather for much needed
petrol; no, no, no
Down towards Seine
through smelly back-ways
I found myself lost
dreaming of riding
bareback to relieve the
pressure upon my feet
so sore
Towards the tower Eiffel
with snakes of fellow
Parisian I join the queue
for Northern lights but
patience ran out quick
I left
Onward and upwards
Trocadero in my grasp
the views not spectacular
but I would not miss them
for the world
Submission to the Metro
line 6 to Etoile
then further out to
Le Defense majestic in
its sight
With hope of rest my
day so ended, RER A back
to Les Halles my friend
no one waited, just the
open window of the
shabby Paris hotel
I stay in
You say “thus far”
implies
there is more to
come
as a promise
given
of more more
much more
but I say “thus far”
will only take you
here
no more will be given
except the final
stop – on its own
.
You might say
I was a Toddler of
the Underground
The layers of
blankets wrapped
up harder so hard
I cannot say for
sure as the memories
are fading, I am
getting older and
the blankets long
gone go figure
You might say
I was a Child of
the Underground
Seeking solitude
among worms and
rotten bones
Comforted by moisten
soil beneath my skin
and echos of
silent dreams
I cannot say for
sure as the memories
are fading, I am
getting older and
the soil has washed
away, still dreaming
You might say
I was a Adolescent of
the Underground
Tunnelling deeper and
deeper into
becoming one
I cannot say for
sure as the memories
are fading, I am
getting older and
the tunnels
never ending
You might say
I was an Adult of
the Underground
Building my house
on solid foundations
should have been the
plan, now crumbling
I cannot say for
sure as the memories
are fading, I am
getting older and
with age comes
another burden
You might say
I will become the Hero of
the Underground
Rising above the petty
squabbles, embracing the
love I have so far
not bothered with
I cannot say for
sure as the time is
of limit but I pray
you are right and the
remaining days be
b.l.e.s.s.e.d
Prompted by a @reinventingwednesday ย prompt: underground