Poetry Drafts

I never google people
not interested in
their pasts,
I broke that rule
to find a friend
only to be told;
he passed away,
I never google people
never will again
I rather live
ignorant
than suffer
such pain

I recall a time I lived
as half of two combined
a singularity bound by  
fearless dreams and our
inherited powers.
I recall a time I lived
as half of two aligned
our mindless attraction
interfering, clarity  
an obfuscated truth.
I recall a time I lived
together – far apart
touching – feeling nought
screaming – silently.
I recall a time I lived
I cannot remember
how

I dreamt of physical intimacy – once

or was it just a hug?

Mayhap I dreamt a dream of hugs 

my mind in mud – I cannot recall, 

Though my desires far outreach

just dreaming, I do fall back to 

dreaming dreams as

hoping for actuality

asserting would be

a step too

far