Author name: Hayden Veil

In an earlier incarnation, Hayden Veil enjoyed a successful career in software engineering, writing late-night poetry in pursuit of sanity. On 2 February 2020, the world of Hayden Veil changed: Ghosts became real and with its soul laid bare there was no turning back from the perpetual path of poetry.

Like treacle. Like treacle I say,
my mind gone blank;
Mindless blinkers steer me
towards the sea
slowly
towards a sea
of treacle, like treacle I say
my mind gone blank;
Treacle, like treacle the path
my thoughts wander
these days
my thoughts wander
wade
through treacle
โ€“ towards no end.

Dots on the horizon, like deliberately bestrewn breadcrumbs in a dusty fairytale, become my path as I hobble through the loveless land. Broken benches snickers as I sail past on windless days. I chew and chew and chew on every golden dot, seeking sustenance in place of salvation; alas, every gilded moth succumb to the snakeโ€™s salivation โ€“ an offering made of glue to the fools following the crumbs in the stories of old.

The longer I live the more pain at every remembrance, every recollection, and every revisitation of the forest seeded long ago.

The longer I live the thinner my skin, translucency revealing an alien presence: someone there but not there; broken branches and crumbling bark.

The longer I live the less words seem to matter, they shatter like aging glass mirrors meeting fists in fits of alienation; no windfall, merely trunks uprooted by the wrathful wind of ages.

The supposition of a loveless life lacks visible proof โ€“ evidently; ghosts twirl in soft tissue with superstitious choirs belting ditties behind veiled doors. The phantasm of a lovely life never becomes the protagonist; blindfolded mice line the corridors, searching for Roquefort; no pudding can be found.

I fear their faces. Vague outlines in the morning mist drawn by dry fingers like tokens of love across a steamed up shower shield.

I fear their blank faces and peering grey eyes staring back at us; delineated tadpole people ambling with the trepidations of drops slowly sliding down through moisture abandoned on vacant shower shields.

I fear their faces, low brows and blood-red diamond eyes splashed by hostile water; a shower head spewing out lies to entice our rotting corpses to confess; to bathe in sulphuric acid without need for shower shields.

I fear their faces, and the new day they bring.

Like the Heartless Like, red turned white, the Sarcastic Thumbs-up lack a first digit: the Wooden Club of approval crushes every skull, washes every mind โ€“ blank.

Being alive isnโ€™t living, my life needs more cowbell. I need more cowbell to feel an urge, for life to surge out of the engulfing quicksand. Throw me a rope, pull me away. Throw me a rope โ€“ with a cowbell.

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