Author name: Hayden Veil

In an earlier incarnation, Hayden Veil enjoyed a successful career in software engineering, writing late-night poetry in pursuit of sanity. On 2 February 2020, the world of Hayden Veil changed: Ghosts became real and with its soul laid bare there was no turning back from the perpetual path of poetry.

Note to self & listeners… You know those 20+ years you wrote from the heart not really considering the reader and how the words would be perceived in the mind of the receiver… Those years matters not; or matters little in the grand plan of … everything.


After a few months of studying the art of poetry I find them pretentious and vain. Them being the reference of learning and marks.


So here I stand at the crossroads of all. How to go on, and how to to find my purpose – here?


Any ideas? Any suggestions for one lost at sea …

Note to tumblr (if you’re listening)

I am really disappointed how you just randomly disconnect me from the blogs I follow. If I don’t see any posts from a particular writer I assume they are busy with their life, doing whatever people do in their lives, I am not assuming you HAVE DISCONNECTED ME FROM THEIR FEED :/

But I will from now on. @staff , I am not amused.

Bewilder

 I reach into the box and touch it, briefly,
 the softness of a tennis ball, over-used
 and squidgy, but covered in lumps, like a
 disease evenly spread around its surface.

 I stick my nose in and smell it, the raw
 pungent stench of a rotten corpse on its
 sixth week uncovered in the tropical
 landscape of death.

 I listen but hear nothing, no something,
 like a sigh from a tired mother's lips
 waiting for a husband’s return under
 the brightest of moons.

 I stick my tongue in and lick the lumped
 facade. The salt fuses with my tongue and
 in my veins a tingle from the hydrochloric
 acid burning.

 I extract it and dread floods my veins, fills my
 lungs, and whistles in my ears as its thoughts
 emanates, no reverberates inside my head.
 It hates me, it loathes me, it wants me -- gone.

 I can no longer hold it, it falls to the floor,
 bounces briefly on the unpolished planks
 before it slowly spins towards the darkest
 corner of the room.

 I am left standing, my bewilderment –

 gone. 

The Feathers Fluttered

and the swans swam
and the feathers fluttered
in a breeze caused by
the air rearrangement,

the ignition of the fuse
slowly surging forwards,
longing to tickle the
dynamite, eagerly awaiting
a moment to shine, to
explode in the face of
inevitably -- and truth,

and the swans swam
and the feathers fluttered
in the breeze
ever present 

Copyright © 2021 @behind-the-veil-of-sanity / Hayden Veil

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The Feathers Fluttered

and the swans swam
and the feathers fluttered
in a breeze caused by
the air rearrangement,

the ignition of the fuse
slowly surging forwards,
longing to tickle the
dynamite, eagerly awaiting
a moment to shine, to
explode in the face of
inevitably -- and truth,

and the swans swam
and the feathers fluttered
in the breeze
ever present 

The Message (#selfdestruct)

Did you see it?

The message I
sent,

I hoped it would
pass you by
unnoticed,

I sent you a disappearing
message, hoping it would
miss, miss its intended
target,

This message unseen and
message unnoticed, so
inappropriate and yet so innocent,
the content from a bin liner
mixed with the shrouds of the tormented,

Did you see it? Did it --

miss the target 

Copyright © 2021 @behind-the-veil-of-sanity / Hayden Veil

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The Message (#selfdestruct)

Did you see it?

The message I
sent,

I hoped it would
pass you by
unnoticed,

I sent you a disappearing
message, hoping it would
miss, miss its intended
target,

This message unseen and
message unnoticed, so
inappropriate and yet so innocent,
the content from a bin liner
mixed with the shrouds of the tormented,

Did you see it? Did it --

miss the target 
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The Ring

I still wear the ring --

 only on a different finger
 these days,

 the message you left
 still resonates -- ad infinitum,

 the space between us,
 the void between stars,

 shrinks with every passing
 jug under the infinite bridge,

 I still wear the ring --

 Unfitting 

Playground Fairytale

and the poet worried about the imagery of the current week
about not finding enough metaphors to satisfy the average reader
about using those second-hand phrases passed down in anger ; in
anguish as you searched your own limited vocabulary

and the poet worried about the coming week
about having to — rhyme
about having meters tangling their freely spoken words
about fitting the academic world into their —

playground

Copyright © 2021 @behind-the-veil-of-sanity / Hayden Veil

Playground Fairytale

and the poet worried about the imagery of the current week
about not finding enough metaphors to satisfy the average reader
about using those second-hand phrases passed down in anger ; in
anguish as you searched your own limited vocabulary

and the poet worried about the coming week
about having to — rhyme
about having meters tangling their freely spoken words
about fitting the academic world into their —

playground
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