Author name: Hayden Veil

In an earlier incarnation, Hayden Veil enjoyed a successful career in software engineering, writing late-night poetry in pursuit of sanity. On 2 February 2020, the world of Hayden Veil changed: Ghosts became real and with its soul laid bare there was no turning back from the perpetual path of poetry.

How to Find the Right Relationship

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1. Know yourself – what you want, and do not want.

2. Have good boundaries – know what it is healthy, and what crosses that line.

3. Know your value, and require respect.

4. Get out there and meet a wide range of people.

5. Give people a reasonable chance.

6. Don’t put people into a box; be open to being surprised.

7. Be persistent in your search for true love.

1. yeah, well….

2. yes, but …

3. OK, but …

4. yeah right …

5 OK, but…

6. I like surprises, as long as they don’t surprise me too much… so …

7. yeah, well…

… ain’t gonna happen

lust-less

who shall we turn to when

our leaders no longer lead,

our visionaries need new specs,

our philosophers are gathering dust,

and our writers have run out of

lust

patiently impatient

will I be denied entry
when the day and time finally arrive
will the gate be unlocked
or need I jump the fence and set off an alarm
will he be expecting me
or do I face rejection once more
will I show patience then
something I always abhorred

In a different life, we’re smiling together.

(via teacup13)

In a different life, our smiles will lead to huggings and light shining brighter 

happiness is …

after banging head against solid brick wall

-”why? why? why?”

happiness is when someone say

– “oops, we might have forgotten to
disable the fading simulation on
the air interface”

– “hold on”

silence 

– “try now”

the smile on the face as
the throughput goes up
from 40Mb/s to the
expected 50 Mb/s
is pure delight

happiness to end the day on
a high; priceless and bodes
well for tomorrow’s session
in the lab

Y/Y

there was Yang, 

a full day so far,

now tragically ended in

Yin,

with tears

gathering,

swiftly

potentially / certainly / presently / fake

there is a challenge
in admitting
that not wanting to do
is the norm,
the way I am
right now 
but not always been
though

how to make you see
there is more
than No in me
there is love
potentially
there is care
certainly
there are all the
things you would
expect
yet presently
not within reach

how to sell the case
that matters
how to sell the lie
without lying
how to make the truth
appear to be
less of a fake
than I currently
feel
I
am

the typewriter

I remember a typewriter
by His office desk; to the left
mechanical by design
portable of a kind
though I never saw it
in the garden.
I remember a cupboard
in His office space
painted partly green
for reasons He knew best
it carried in its belly
a photograph; a face
a woman not the wife
a woman not the mother
a woman of desire perhaps
or a memory; \ forget-me-not ///;
a woman in uniform
a woman
without answers
I remember His typewriter
in His office; to the left
where He withdrew
contemplating perhaps
the merits of family life
and how best to avoid it

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