At times I wish there was a version,

A version of you that wanted me, or

should I say a version of me.

Like you longed for Jason Bourne Esq.

I could live on such desire

For a lifetime, Jason & I

Brothers in arms,

I desired you

Unlike Jason /born/

Who only tried

To fool you,

As you fell I told you

So so so so I told you so,

In so many ways I told you

In so many versions I

Fooled you.

So here we stand

Naked and alone,

Wishing upon stars,

Versions of ours,

Crashing these hours,

The final towers

Crumbling,

Our versions

Redacted to

One solid

Temptation.

Our final versions,

Unwanted

I go into hiding,

the pattern repeats itself,

I go,

I walk,

I stand behind the shadow of a tree,

Empowered by bark &

The chewing, the golden sap –

Endlessly gooey

love is binary, it cannot happen twice, it starts as nothing, a zero that with effort is turned into a one: through beating gets moulded into something not round, and left to rot and further decay, rusts and remains oh so stale, until one day it finds another purpose, but here is where I stop this story; this journey as it goes beyond my understanding, this transition from nothing into … something of a kind, I wait, hesitantly, for signs of … that

& we shall dance until we fall,

Only one of us remaining tall,

I danced on your grave until you

Woke and reach for my hand,

Warts and all

.

I found a bead, dead and buried

I saw the seed of life emerging,

We kissed and everything we hoped

To be, became to us as real could be

.

& in the morning follow through

We met and wed and all was so,

And so and so it all began,

With disbeliefs turned ahead,

& God’s sword of passion –

Glowing