note to self: do you remember that feeling of despair you had a long time ago, the tight knot in the stomach and the darkness in your chest? Well, do come and greet its big brother! It was not anything you did in particular but I would suggest reading up on the module description before signing up the next time (if there will be a next time that is…). you fool. how could you not see the issues that group work would cause. mandatory forum participation with assessment of posting quality and level of interaction using suitable language. I mean it was meant as trap and you fell right in. you fool. so what are you going to do next? quit your studies of module 2? module 1 is almost at an end, only 2000 words left. You wonโt receive a distinction but there was hope, at one point there was hope for a future. With all light bulbs blown, that future is gone; gone with the wind – a wind of change // no longer present
April 2019
can I claim sadness without tears
Can I claim sadness without tears // my youthful years so swiftly came and went // awaiting now the one swallow to make my day // before autumn winds fill my sail // before the leaves of yesteryear // unshaven falls; unshaven falls; unshaven - falls //ย beside me
a fistful of ugly
and there I was - thinking I could not go wrong again; but life waved its ugly hand: gloveless /// a two finger salute; a fist-full of ugly ?ยฟ? no longer in pursuit of my made-up dreams, the keeper of doors laughing; shut in face - in disgrace; my mirror cracked, and so my story ends.
all and nothing
All is good,
All is fair,
I swim downstream,
I laugh through prayer
All [โฆ] good,
All [โฆ] fair,
[โฆ] broken,
[โฆ] pray
,
/_โข=โข_/
,
I embrace my punishment; without a crime,
I bleed vividly; without a heart,
I stand tall; kneeling small
I am
,
no more
using only four-letter words
Today I will remain shallow,
Using only four-letter words,
Like okay,
Like fine,
Like sure,
Not to express truths,
Like lies,
Like fuck
You;
Me,
Keeping things safe,
Keeping things real,
Keeping things tidy,
,
,
Like snow; only more dear,
,
Like door bell: ding dong,
,
Like beat,
Like,
Beat,
,
Only; less fear,
,
full stop ends this shit: here.
unmarried
There are days when everything flows, when the dark and gloomy thoughts of [โฆ] feels like; creative writing. Other days such thoughts; and perhaps rightly so, are the cause for serious worry. I think too much, I drink too much, and never will they marry.
100 15-word myths:ย 100-91
Enjoy these micro-myths I wrote for the Tumblr community. – r.p.
โThey made the greyish-blue days merge into a silent dream of dancing city lights.โ
โ 15-word mth #100: Grey / @bluekindamood
She has ninety-nine problems and the rumors of her turned myths are all of them.โ 15-word myth #99: Samantha / @sahkha
She was a bright moon on a cloudy, starless night, wondering how to be beautiful.โ 15-word myth #98: Dana / @kaleidoscxpc
She could feed her loyal flock with hollow words and theyโd forget how to starve.โ 15-word myth #97: Lauren / @cannulatedencores
She was all that was left after the bombs fell, a cloud in the distance
โ 15-word myth #96: Katie Lee / @atombombkatieHer honorable yet damaged bones became a new kingdom for deep dreamers and derelict souls.โ 15-word myth #95 : Camrie / @camtrouvaille
She wore sweet cider on her lips and dry gin in her eyes, Sunday songstress.โ 15-word myth #94:
The sky broke its own sacred code, to dance with her as the world watched.
โ 15-word myth #93: Aurora / @xameluzScience made him a god. God made him a man. Man made him a fool.
โ 15-word myth #92: Edward Morbius / @drmorbius12ยShe awoke to a barren bosom, letting loose a hollow cry towards her motherly moon.โ 15-word myth #91: Roseanna / @behind-the-veil-of-sanity
the priceless tree of wonder
I read her face – faceless in the shadows,
She speaks to me – I listen; not doubting,
Hearing her I hear; I her – I he,
Two hands – not touching,
I pursue the dreaming; I / me / he,
of her / me / she,
drowning in shallow waters,
yet deep; eyes wandering,
yet deeper; my longing,
our belonging,
the we; the coming
of age,
the becoming of us,
the priceless tree
of wonder
dripping: shivering
There is no desperation here,
No thirst or desire of further fear(s) ,
I keep the flames licking [lips],
and.
thus.
rattle.
impervious.
unsharpened knives cutting; shallow scars.
scar. car. ar. rrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
pirates did not.
knot.
cut.
cherry/lick me/wet lands/shiver,
I loved your shakes,
while you pretended;
not
to
care: shivering
iconoclash
I contemplate the arguments,
the iconoclasm; the against,
a n d
the iconoclash; the for,
amongst; amidst; in between arguments,
I sigh,
I think,
w t f
am I getting myself into